I found out today my cannula was bent... I was going around with these bg's... all weekend long..

Blood sugars for the whole weekend:

10/29 10:03AM - 309

10/29 12:14PM - 389

10/29 4:32PM - 444

10/29 6:31PM - 297

10/29 7:39PM - 284

10/29 8:27PM - 293

10/29 11:18PM - 440

10/30 9:52AM - 421

10/30 6:10PM - 373

10/30 9:01PM - 495

10/30 11:09PM - 533

10/31 1:09AM - 512

10/31 2:42AM - 494

10/31 12:20PM - 448

10/31 1:49PM - 458

10/31 2:18PM - 441

10/31 7:57PM - 589

10/31 9:16PM - 230

10/31 11:34PM - 73

11/01 - 12:01AM - 87

11/01 - 1:06PM 129

... Not only was it an ugly weekend, but I had asked a quesiton to some people who are from CWD and type1chat.org about whether or not I should double up on my supplies this weekend because it will be the first time I'm going away from family with people who are not diabetics, and away from people who know how to treat my lows if I'm completely out of it and I will be in the woods to a summer camp I went to when I was a kid. I stopped going there when I was diagnosed with Diabetes, and went to Diabetic camp.  The first time in 5 years of having my insulin pump I'm going away from my family for an over night trip. It's for a leadership conference, and also to break away from my shell because I'm a quiet person, and I stay to myself many times. I'm taking two of everything just to be on the safe side, but I had gotten a message on my facebook by someone:

"How long have you had diabetes? I'm asking because I'm confused. Some people I know through the type 1 chat are wondering if you really have diabetes. Some questions you ask seem very almost awkwardly elementary in the diabetes world for someone who has had diabetes for any appreciable amount of time. Do you see an endocrinologist? Do you have any support from people you're close with? If you do in fact have diabetes (and I will believe you do unless I am told otherwise), it seems like you would benefit from more diabetes support and education than you have had up until this point. If you do not in fact have diabetes, please just tell us and if you have diabetes questions, we'd be more than happy to answer them for you, but we're not here for interactions and relationships with fake people. Thanks, and if there's anything I can do to help you, please let me know."

i hate the fact that I have to prove who I am.. I went through this all during elementary, middle school, high school and college. I've lived with this and it depresses me horribly. I'm 24 years old and I am a quiet Diabetic. I don't tell about my disease, because I find it to be something personal and I don't want anyone to continuously asking me if I feel okay, or if they can help me, or if I can, can't have something. It saddens me to think of how judgemental people are in this world and by asking questions you never get answers, and the fact is that it's making me want to cry because I go through so much anyways in life... and to think you can go somewhere for support it doesn't help being grilled about things.